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If you thought I wascrzy then den how bout now mfuckars My opinion on how to sift thru the bullshit media July 24, 2010, 12:02 pm ---- Grasp the concept embraced the dream while shallow minds chase sallow dreams.......... Forget those who say it can't be and loose those who will not see for open minds will always hold the key........ will you be blind guided by words from silly puppets that spew words creating false realities all the while dragging you into what they want what they believe in the end it is you and you alone who has the mind yes the mind to sift thru the bullshit and find the truth for the truth always lies in wait for those who take the time to find it......................... Im back for better or worse................ July 23, 2010, 11:29 am ---- What was will never be ....wasted moments on the sidewalk of empty dreams I offer my condolences to those who are lost in the dream but I can't forgive the ignorance that permeates the clutter of humanity. Just a glimpse a moment captured in time shaken but not stirred as I lay to waste the best of minds. Tell me now don't hesitate for if you have to think then it lays to spoil the thoughts you bend to put into the box of acceptance and then what are you left with??????Squandered moments scattered behind the footsteps that lead to what might have been. Wasted hours stacked up like piles of wood to keep you warm on the coldest of nights while in the deep darkness as you blindly stumble down the path that you know so well clinging to thoughts that comfort you as you run them thru your mind over and over again in the world of what was but will never be...............noj I bid you farewell for a bit what a dope I have been June 15, 2010, 3:57 pm ---- I am not going to be contributing to the site for awhile not that it matters anyway but if T wants to someday come back it will be up to him. I have given my all for way to many embarrassing years and I frankly at this point only and idot would not say fuck it!!!!!!!!! as I am in the same place I was when I started this site. I tried and the silence has been defining so even an idiot would know better than to carry it as long as I have so with embarrassment for my delirious ego I bid you farewell for awhile......... just call me the idiot savant.............................noj Green Warrior4part 1 June 15, 2010, 6:51 am ---- empowerment.this is the last tenant and it might sound strange to environmentalists out their-as mankind would seem to have been to empowered.we have taken-in a wrong reading of sacred texts-dominance over the world.this simply must stop.we must understand that the only plausible way that we are going to make it,is to empower all other species-so that none are lost by our doing to the world.you may ask,'how do you empower other species?'the easiest way for mankind to do this is to live traceless.this is an old Native'Way'.many that came to northern america assumed that the indigenous people were savage or not to developed.what they missed and so essential to the conversation here-is that they lived the 7th generation philosophy,which is,'live in such a way as to empower generations 7 from now'.this is heavy duty and asks so much of us.this year listening to so many graduation speakers,it disturbed me that so little was said about the environment.it is to bad that the students that were so involved with enviornment were not allowed to speak-they are awesome!i hold nothing against the students-they merely reflect our culture.a good litmus test and swing the other way will be when we start seeing speeches that talk about the enviornment.so again the best way to look at this principle is to empower all species.in order to do this we must develop and sustain a new,'Cosmology'as Richard Rohr says.more on this tomorrow-have to run.peace,T gig? June 14, 2010, 7:07 pm ---- well graduation went well for my son and also for the school i work at.hard to imagine-last child graduated!how did the gig go Jon?peace,T nobody gives a shit but here is my 2 cents worth June 14, 2010, 4:13 pm ---- Time is a frieght train slamin into my brain I guess I am the only one with the time to take this from the mondane...... guess I need to find a life hey...............jon Graduation.... June 11, 2010, 6:26 am ---- hey all-sorry i have not been on.my youngest is graduating this weekend,so i have been attending all the functions and having a great time with the fam.-at the same time i am wrapping up 22 years of education-frazzled, tired,happy/sad.be back soon.peace,T thank you! June 4, 2010, 10:48 am ---- thank you all-very busy,just trying to finish off my year in public ed.talk to you soon.peace,T sometimes 1 June 2, 2010, 10:30 pm ---- Sometimes mellow is the darkness in the pouring rain sometimes I am angry at the things I am too lazy to change yea sometimes I wonder....... sometimes I wonder........... sometimes I reach to grasp the things I know I will never hold sometimes I want to taste the victory of success that lies outside the reach of one who is not so bold...... yea sometimes.........sometimes I tire of the wasted time I spend inside the dream turning in circles like a dog chasing the tail of selfish needs and sometimes I want to grab it all and throw it all away but sometimes it slips thru the hands that would not know how to hold it anyway......... sometimes yea....... sometimes.......sometimes the lies cascade down upon my guilty mind as sometimes I have a hard time deflecting all the truths that I ignore......... the subtle whispers they spell out directions to the one who chooses to be blind....... yea sometimes .........sometimes..............jon yes! June 2, 2010, 6:55 am ---- hey Jon,i am excited about this new direction.you so deserve a venue that will appreciate all that you do.i support you one million percent my bro!peace,T After a year and a half its time to move on June 1, 2010, 8:43 am ---- As I mentioned in the journal a couple of days ago we are not doing the open mic at South Shores and Bobby the drummer has decided to leave the band so I am currently looking for a new drummer I am going to an open mic on Thursday night I will give details on where and when and I look forward to the challenge of finding new players to help carry on the legacy of this up and coming band.........jon away from me May 30, 2010, 1:35 pm ---- I can feel that demon seed crawling deep inside my brain I want to dig deep with the tools of self awareness that will tear that shit loose and let it flow, let it flow away from me. I can feel that seed of hate as it slithers deep inside my brain but I can't find the tools to dig it out so that shit will flow away, flow away from me. I can feel the seed of indifference as it slithers thru my brain escaping the thoughts that I know will make it flow make it flow away from me, I feel the heavy weight of insecurities as they tell lies to the person I want to be no matter how hard I try I can't seem to make the break that lets them flow away from me, away from me .I can taste my desires, so close I can almost lick them but as I look around I slap my face with the reality that my own ineptitude gives them all the time they need to never flow away, flow away from the person I want to be. I am left standing no closer than I was all those years ago to the goals I set out to achieve because I always choose the wrong path to let life's obstcle3s flow away from me, flow away from me...................jno ramble on jon ramble on May 28, 2010, 8:15 pm ---- We don't take the time before we blurt out the words that complicate the scene that we are trying not to repeat. And we don't stand on solid ground as we move those silent words around and everything seems to change as nothing changes while we fall, we fall. Into pits of commonplace it is no secret that we love to waste the things we do so well as we fall back into the wells of silent misery, those silent wells of misery. No we don't take the time to choose words that separate and lead us to the place where we can be breath in the open air take me back to where we lived when we were free thoughts ran thru our open minds like gazelles across the Serengeti breathing in the air unspoiled by the footprint of humanity but who am I am what is my reality as these words channel from my wandering mind onto this open space .Sometimes I can't turn it off and the ramble goes on eventually overstaying its welcome and as I hurry these jumbled thoughts along I wonder once again what is this strange bond I have with the written word and the thoughts that clutter my mind sorry you have to look at it but I need let it out..........your loving band member jon Jon Built that place-literally! May 27, 2010, 9:32 am ---- just a little history here.Jon is not kidding.the manager's affect is so strange.even when i was down there-we killed and she would constantly say,'turn it down'.not sure what that is about.that place was built on the blood,and sweat of my Brother and Shadowscreamers.i say-good nigh and good luck,unless they get a new manager! Jon,you are moving in the right direction bro!peace,T turning the page............ May 27, 2010, 7:38 am ---- After a year and a half at South Shores Doing the open mic with my good friends Penny and Kiran we are taking a break. When we first started the place was not serving food on Tuesday nights even though they are a restaurant and the only patrons who were in the place were a handful of locals. Last Tuesday night like so many before since we built up Tuesday nights the place was packed so we are leaving at the top of our game. With Bobby the drummer deciding to move on this is good timing for me as I can move on to other open mic's to find a new drummer and other players to fill out the band. I am really excited to inject some new blood into the band things were getting to complacent and I do share some of the blame for that. I must scratch my head over the attitude of the bar manager who seemed to take us for granted and had some kind of weird perception that my two piece band was to loud it seems strange that I could be too loud when most of the time our fans in the audience complained that we were not loud enough??? I don't know how we could possibly be louder then a five piece band blasting out classic rock n roll??????anyway I am proud of what we have done and the many new fans we have added to our base over the last year and a half. I wish South Shores luck in these tough times and I can't wait to get started playing for new fans in another venue so keep checking back this page has turned and I am moving on to write new pages in the story of Shadow Screamers I hope you will come along for the ride...............jon Awesome May 26, 2010, 7:13 am ---- Jon,that is wonderful! What everyone needs to know here is that my brother Jon is an outstanding solo performer.Excellent singer,guitar player,song writer-OUTSTANDING!You must check him out.We were just talking this weekend about his fingerpicking-which always,always captivates me!Awesome Jon!peace,T outside May 25, 2010, 11:18 pm ---- I am a loner dancing deep into the night it s not the course I chose but it fits me like a sheath fits the sharpest knife, I am a loner but it's not the place I want to be as the comfort it grows deeper as I let go of the need. Have always lived way on the outside only those who live there see that no matter how you try it is always meant to be, I am living on the outside why can't I step into the dream of all those who live the life that those on the outside only dream. Why was I cast way on the outside for it is my darkest memory and you can't ever taste the meaning unless you have lived outside the dream............jon the whisper May 24, 2010, 7:44 pm ---- That whisper it tickles my imagination as words flow thru my hands what if could wash away disagreements like sand castles on the beach, what if we listened? No don't nod your head like you are absorbing every word while you are going over the to do list in your mind. What if we said what we really mean instead of trying to appease everyone with false comments that lift the moment but are as shallow as the most self absorbed ego maniac, what if we always did what was right no matter how inconvenient no matter there is no recognition, no glory no gain, what if we always spoke the truth no matter what the consequence no matter how much it would heat the one who needs to hear it no matter how much it would negatively affect you, what if we treated everyone as an equal no matter the appearance the degree of intelligence the social skills the ability to exist the whisper it tickles my imagination...............onj venting May 23, 2010, 2:15 pm ---- We need to reach down deep into the throat of complacency and status- quo and rip out all the false promises all the inept bullshit, all the name calling, the polarization, the rich clutching to greed like a starving boy holding the last piece of bread the lazy looking for a free ride as they utter it's not my fault you owe me, the bigots hiding behind that slimy dripping smile, the self righteous with no room for tolerance pushing their self centered holy bullshit, the mindless dreamers sputtering their puffy clouds of rainbows and unicorns, the ego infested politicians who after years of spewing bullshit actually believe it, I can go on and on but I am out of time.................jon
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